Renowned media personality Lynn Ngugi, like many of her guests, has shared how she did not allow her abusive background to deter her from achieving her dreams.
She recalls her father being abusive towards her mother while growing up.
“My father was a good father but a very bad husband. He gave us proper education but took my mother through hell. In a way, that is going to influence you eventually. They eventually separated and we had to start from scratch when we moved into a single room in Huruma with my mother,” she said on the Becoming CEO show by Phil Karanja.
“My mother unfortunately did not have much so she would come back, but you can only go back for too long. So one day she left with us and never came back. My dad withdrew financial support. I was on and off in school, eventually, she found her path and ensured we were all schooled, although with a lot of difficulties.“
The popular YouTuber went on to state: “Collage was a big deal to my mother, but securing a job with a local media house was a challenge and I ended up working in restaurants in gulf countries as a barrister.”
Lynn believes no one completely heals from trauma. According to her, it took her a while to forgive her father for his misdoings and failure.
“He instilled a lot of fear in us, he would come home drunk, beat all of us and chase us out of the house into the cold. The fact that he did not know better does not negate my mother’s experience, because it was traumatic. Is she not allowed to speak and free herself from the trauma?” she poses.
“My mother forgave my dad a long time ago, my sister too, they were the last people to hold his hands when he died. I did not even attend his funeral because I was bitter then. I look at my father’s last moment and how apologetic he was and I wish my dad knew better, I live for the good memories we shared,” she said.
Asked if she is happy, Lynn noted that she has never been happier, adding that her mother is her biggest cheerleader.
“There are moments when I doubted if I wanted to do it, but my mother reminded me it’s for a purpose, if I do not do it who else will? In the beginning, it was really hard to trust people, anything people watch on my show apart from the sexual abuse is not new, if we are talking about domestic abuse, I have watched it happen in my own home, if its people sleeping hungry, I have seen it happen in my own home, I have been there where people are trying to make ends meet, I put myself in their shoes,” she said. BY CITIZEN DIGITAL