Content creator Milly Wajesus has cried while recounting her heartbreaking battle with postpartum depression. Milly Wajesus spoke about going through postpartum depression. Photos: Wajesus Family. Source: Youtube Why did Milly Wajesus want to abandon kids? According to the Mayo Clinic, symptoms of postpartum depression include difficulty bonding with the newborn, loss of appetite or eating more than usual, insomnia, and fear that one is not a good mother. Other symptoms include thoughts of a mum harming herself or the baby and feelings of worthlessness and guilt. In a Monday, March 10 video shared on their YouTube channel, Milly and her husband, Kabi, spoke to a therapist. The mother of three said she had considered walking away and leaving her children behind.
According to Milly, she felt inadequate and burdened those around her with her children. The YouTuber broke down, recalling the unsettling thoughts. “In January, I asked myself what if I just walked away and left the children alone? I had moments where I felt like I could abandon them.” Milly said that she partly blamed the children for being in that mindset and felt like she could not take care of them by herself. “This is perhaps the darkest thought I had.” However, Milly noted that her thoughts did not go beyond that. She noted that the thoughts went away soon after, and she has not experienced them again. Milly also admitted that she was very irritable during the period, and little things would tick her off. She recalled a time when Kabi delayed in bringing their suitcases to the car, and she packed her bags, ready to leave their matrimonial home.
“I was ready to leave and return to my parents’ home.” However, Milly stopped herself by questioning how she would care for her children. Despite going through a hard time, the loving mother noted that she never directed her frustration or anger at her children. Milly said she would cry in the bathroom alone and felt like Kabi had abandoned her. She noted that during the pregnancy he would wash and take care of her, but he was now busy taking care of their children. Several women shared similar experiences. @FatmaHamad-hs3tj: “I remember going through this with my twin babies while having KCSE and at the same time losing my breadwinner sister. God bless all mothers.” @Queens254: “Postpartum is real. I went through it as a young single mother. It was never easy but I thank God for everything.” @Gra_cie_cz: “I understand Milly quite well. I gave birth during the COVID-19 pandemic and I was locked up in the house for months. I almost lost my mind.”
by William Osoro
