Kambua: I will forever live with the fact that I carried a baby I never got to raise

 

Kambua Manundu has once again opened up about how she is still dealing with the death of her newborn baby which happened 3 years ago.

The beautiful mom of two used her popular Instagram page to express some of the sorrows she was feeling after a tough day when all the emotions came back to her.

"Today has been a hard day, can you tell? 😅 I’m told that my eyes betray me…idk, sometimes I get grief triggers that I don’t anticipate and it feels like I’m free-falling, yet finding comfort in knowing that God will always catch me.

I will forever live with the fact that I carried a baby that I never got to raise. Oh, but I loved him. I prayed for him. I sang for him. He knew how much his mama wanted him and I imagine he knew how much my heart broke when his stopped."

She went on to explain how a video clip she had watched on her TikTok feed had contributed to her melancholy noting that she related deeply to what she was watching,

"I saw a dad on TikTok (Baba Dylan) kissing his boy’s casket as it was lowered to the ground and this had me undone."

She then added how odd it was for a parent to mourn their seed and maturely stated that she still trusted in God despite the tragic incident.

"It feels so unnatural to bury a child- it’s not the “proper” order of things, and yet, I trust the plan of God. I trust his sovereignty even when my human mind cannot wrap itself around death, its purpose, and its inevitability. Today my heart aches; but not only for myself."

She finished by encouraging herself and her fans saying that February would be a month she would remember the babe that she had lost and take it as it came "whether it comes in floods of tears, or fits of laughter, I will take it."

She finished by reaffirming her faith in her Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ noting that he walked with her.

"He’s well acquainted with pain, he sings over me, he pours his healing balm over every gaping wound…it is the assurance of his presence that reminds me that, even here, even now, it is well with me. 🦋"

The musician's son Malachi Manundu Muthiga Mathu died in February 2021 and was only a few days old when he breathed his last.

BY MPASHO NEWS